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(7 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) If Im just bad news, then you're a liar [21 Nov 2004|08:13pm] [ mood | confused ] so this weekend was really out of control. Even though some people might get pissed that I post about everything, but whatever "thats cool" its my journal. so friday night i worked until about 9 after going to the mystic seaport, getting really stoned, and taking pictures for photography. Pretty cool. So I got out at 9, helped Colin close the porch, and then we talked and ate pizza till about 1030. We left, and I told him I'd give him a call later. So I was in a really bad mood all night, being my emo self, but whatever. So let's see... I left, called greg, and talked to him for a while. He ended up meeting up with Colin, and I talked to Col. I hung out with Neen because Ari decided she was too cool for me....jerk :( haha. We went to the gas station and col was there with Carly. So we hung out, then left. Afterwards we decided to hang out with Mark so we did, and then ari came home, well...I picked her up when her car broke down...So me, ari, colin, neen and mark hung out till about 4 am, and Mark ended up sleeping over Neen's house with us. We woke up the next morning, I brought Mark home, and went home. Saturday was...interesting. So let's see....I worked till 10 with Zach and Col, he did salad, which was awesome. So they got out at 9 and decided to drink in the van. So while I was working Zach was texting me, and finally I got out. I found my cigarettes on the seat of my car, with a note on it that said "BAD! &hearts Zach" I was like hmmm.. So I went over to the van, and talked to them, and being the sketchy kid col is he goes in a creepy voice "get in the van..." And I was like ehh I dunno, you guys are sketchy... and hes like GET IN THE VAN. so I got in haha. They had the coolest beer! the bottles had sayings on them, such as "skinny dippers are people too", "Im a scientist, lets experiement" and "for novelty use only" So yea, I ended up drinking with them, then I dunno, Zach and I ended up kissing, then I was supposed to go to Ambers. So I was kinda ehh about how much me n zach were kissing, and then we were talking, and since i was so drunk i was kinda upset. So I went to Ambers house with him in the car, and colin behind me, and we talked, and I cried, and he called me out on the greg thing, and confused me, but i dont know. so it was really fun when the 3 of us were hanging out. I love hanging out with them. I told them some stuff that I kinda wish I didnt. well, I dont care, I trust them both a lot. So I went to ambers, and when i got there zach and i were still talking, and then we said something and hes like "wow that was straight out of a movie" haha so i laughed, and then i called him out on soemthing, and hes like "it only happened one time, and it didnt mean ANYTHING" I dunno. So he said something right before I got out of the car, and it was something emotional, a little cute, but made me cry. So I walked in to ambers house bawling my eyes out, and her and kim were comforting me. then I smoked a shitload and passed out after talking to zach on the phone. Today I woke up feeling shitty, hung out with Amber for a while, then came to Ari's house. Got coffee, visited Carly, we're going to coffee tomorrow to talk and shiz, and then I visited Colin at work. We talked, then I went and saw Ian, wrote him notes because I love him so much, and then...came back to Ari's. Talked to Greg for a while, and looked for bud, but....it didnt happen. So now Im going to pick up mark. I was also talking to eric and we were talking about sex, and of course he had to comment. allio216: i wanna have sex now. allio216: haha ERockESL: lol ERockESL: call up zach ;-) OUT OF CONTROL ha. So yea, we're going to some party now, and I have to pee, and put makeup on. Well, Im going to pick up mark actually. Yea.. This weekend was pretty good, but i wish i wasnt so emo, especially when im drunk. but i also talked to zach today and we're definitely fine, and hes not pissed that i was a bitch to him. awesome.

(1 Justin Timberlake Wannabee | Rock Your Body) fuck yea. [19 Nov 2004|02:40pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | why bother? - weezer ] music and crap Created by gecie and taken 9 times on bzoink! yes, no, or dont know Aquabats AMAZING. I love them a lot Beastie Boys I like some stuff, other things by them seriously suck. Big D and The Kids Table AWESOMENESSSS. Blondie eh. Bouncing Souls heard of them, never listened to them Casualties pretty okay. Catch 22 awesome :) remeber when they werent big? oh yea, me too The Clash yes! Common Rider uhh Dance Hall Crashers uhh Distillers uhh Dropkick Murphys YESSSS! dropkick murphys in boston was the best ever Garbage they're okay. Green Day of course!! <33 Hepcat who? Hole Horrorpops Jaya The Cat JHC Lars Frederiksen and The Bastards Less Than Jake :P awesome. they rock Madness Mephiskapheles Mighty Mighty Bosstones YES!! Nekromantix No Doubt they used to be awesome, now they...suck. NoFX yea they're great Operation Ivy pretty good. Plan 17 eh Pennywise yep they're good The Queers Quarters Only Ramones YESSS Rancid okay. Reel Big Fish xlovex seeing them tonight? HELL YEA! RX Bandits = rock Save Ferris heard of them, dont listen to them though Selector Sex Pistols yep! Social Distortion Specials Tiger Army Transplants Twelve Cent Vandals yepppp <3 name the band who released the cd Bastard Music 40 Oz. To Freedom Mest Turn The Radio Off Reel Big Fish Energy Lying Awake Pezcore Viking Hollywood Potato Chip God Bless Satan How It Goes Hell Yeah Power of Moonlite Dead Girls Dont Cry I dunno, sounds like a tft thing though Destruction By Definition Parallel Lines Last Wave Rockers Stay Out of Order Life Wont Wait The Beacon Street Collection Honey, Im Homely Out of Nowhere Land of The Free? Lets Face It Alone In A Crowd Why Do They Rock So Hard? because we can! (I dunno who released it though) It Means Everything Warning Everything Goes Numb name who does the song Trendy Reel Big Fish. its not soo bad bein trendy! everyone who looks like me is.my.friend. Pool Shark Stand By its a hawthorne heights song Sick and Sad A Moment of Silence Fog Surrounds California Babylon Boomtown Classics Of Love Barroom Heros Baby Lou Tattoo Fuck Authority NoFX maybe. Whats In Your Neighbors BBQ? Ape Drape Create a Survey | Search Surveys | Go to bzoink!

(1 Justin Timberlake Wannabee | Rock Your Body) Uh huh, okay... [18 Nov 2004|11:00pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | angels with even filthier soul - hawthorne heights ] Last night I talked to Colin for a long time, about a lot of stuff, and when I finally got into bed, I cried for 3 hours straight. It felt good, and I doubt I'll cry about this, or anything else, for a long time. So I woke up around 7 and studied my ass off for my anatomy test, but still prolly got a 40. f'real, I did ATROCIOUSLY. Fucking skull. So after that I had...history and chorus, which were both okay, and then Amber skipped english and left with me because I had studyhall. We went down to Alforno and hung with Col till like 1:20ish, then we went to the bank and openned a checking account for me, and had a raging boner almost the whole time. Pretty awkward. Afterwards we went to the school, I met KUAWA! who is so gorgeous, and then went to alforno again. We hung with Col, waited for him to get out, and wen we went outside, there was the CUTEST puppy. It was so hyper and made me laugh hysterically for about 10 minutes. Then we left, went shopping, saw dustin, went back to Amber's house, and ate chinese food. Now this is where it gets amazing. So amber and I were cleaning, and ry came over. I was eating reeses pieces, and we decided to throw them and try to get them in his mouth, and I tried to get a better angle on the couch, and I end up with pieces ALL OVER ME. So Im cracking up, and ry figures out that if I stand up REALLY fast that everything will be okay. So I stand up and we get most of the pieces back in the bag. So then Im cleaning lint off his pants, and theres this string and it's pissing me off, so I burned it off with a lighter, and thats when things all went to shit. We grabbed one of the sticky things from the lint remover, and COVERED it in this stuff called Big orange-e. Its cleaner, and it said "combustable" on it, so being the amazingly intelligent kids we are, we decide to light it on fire. Amber is upstairs with her dad, so we go to the cement part of the floor, and lit it on fire. So we're watchingit, and it starts getting REALLY big, so we're like OH SHIT! And ry goes "step on it!" but i didnt wanna melt my shoe, so I grabbed a PING PONG PADDLE and since the sticky paper was all melted, it stuck to the paddle, lighting it on fire. Since Im a wicked smart kid, I shook the paddle, and my pants, and the ping pong table lit on fire. Also a piece of flaming melted plastic flew RIGHT BY ryan's head, and we were craking up, so we finally extinguished everything, and sat down inconspicuously when amber and her dad came down. So we finally told amber about it, then we lit the floor on fire, well not really, with the big orange-e stuff, but put it out. Then ryan lets a lot of lighter fluid drain into this bag, PLASTIC BAG, and lights the lighter. the bag EXPLODED, and I was sitting next to him, and I JUMPED to the next couch,. it scared the shit out fo me. then amber went upstairs, so ry and i found a tennis ball, COVERED IT in the stuff, and lit it on fire. we tiook a pic of it with ambers phone, and then when it was starting to roll, and get pretty out of control, we poured this MASSIVE glass of water on it. It was amazing. After that we just hung out, remembered so many inside jokes, and yea. Sleep = awesome. <333 Replace the sunshine, with brown eyes and dark skies...

(2 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) Baby we can spend some time, I could be your sunshine.. [18 Nov 2004|12:07am] [ mood | emo ] [ music | sunshine ] I'm so....emo (for lack of better word) today. I thought a lot about everything today, I don't know why. I was thinking about making this friends only, and even to go as far as making it custom, but I decided against it, because Im pretty sure not too many people read my journal anyway. Today started off okay...I got a phonecall around 12:15 last night, that not only surprised me, but aggrivated me. How am I supposed to get over someone who calls me every day? So I went to sleep around 11:30, woke up at 12:15, then went back to sleep. When i woke up at 3 in the morning, and thought it was 7, I was pleasently surprised when i realized I still had 4 hours of sleep left. It was nice. So I was fully rested, and my day started off with writing workshop. Today was a grammar day, and I loved it, since Im a grammar fiend when it comes to school. After that we discussed formal business letters, and I have to write one for friday, piece of cake. Then I went to anatomy, and champed a quiz on the skeleton that I didnt even know. It was amazing that i got a 95. i was happy as hell. After that I had block photography, so I went home, got my camera, and walked around taking pictures. It was good times. i took some really cool ones, and Im on to shadows now. I have to finish that one by friday morning, because we're going to mystic all day friday to begin photojournalism. Im really excited. thats another reason I want to go to emerson, not that Im EVER gnna get in, but it would be nice... Then I had lunch, studyhall, chorus, the usual. Boring. After school I went to Amber's to help her clean her dad's house for Saturday night (which is going to kick so much ass its not even funny) I passed out on her bed, because I guess I was tired? When I woke up me amb and her dad were talkig about what stuff to get for saturday, and I brought up southern comfort. Amber's dad told us the FUNNIEST story about southern comfort, along the lines of him and his 3 other buddies drinking a ton of it, and 3 of them ending up in a bathtub singing row row row your boat. HILARIOUS. So he recommended we get smaller handles of both southern comfort and captain, becuse not everyone likes both. we have 2 30 racks, and at least 5 handles. We're gonna be so out of control. But it's amber's birthday, so who cares? And I dont have to work Sunday, so if I feel like shit, I'll sit around and not do anything. Then after she cleaned and I slept, we ordered pizza, ate some of that, and ryan and erik came over. They left after a while, and amber and I blasted hawthorne heights and studied for anatomy, because she's almost as obsessed with them as I am :P If I have like, 12 extra dollars to my name on tuesday, we're going to Toad's place to see them play. Zach L and I were going to go together, but he has a show at the webster that night. I have to admit Im really pretty excited to hang out with him. I dunno, he's a great guy, but Im scared of hanging out with him too much, and getting too close to him, because I have a feeling he's pretty bad with relationships. They dont seem to last with him...I really dont need to get close to another person again just for them to hurt me, Im all set with that one. But I dunno, maybe this one will actually work out :) So we studied for anatomy and came back to her mom's house, I just dropped her off and left. Then I went to get coffee, and talked on the phone wth Ari for a long time, and she made me feel a lot better about college and stuff, even though Im stressing out pretty seriously, I think everything will be okay. I've kinda felt lately like I dont really have that many real friends. I mean, I know I have a couple (you guys already know who you are) but with some I feel like they're just friends with me because I do stuff for them, like bring them food and cigarettes and drive them around... I wish I knew who really liked me for me, and who is just bullshitting to get something out of the friendship. I FUCKING MISS HANGING OUT WITH GREG. A lot of people told me not to get too close to him, because it's not who he really is and all this shit, but I really thought me and greg's friendship was different. I thought he actually liked hanging out with me. I dunno, I guess if he doesnt its not worth it, but I miss going over there and just hanging out. Or calling/texting him, knowing he wanted to hear from me, instead of feeling like Im some huge burden on him, and someone he would really rather not talk to. It kinda sucks. I loved who he was when i first started hanging out with him. He was the best ever. I wish everything would go back to how it was around july and august this past summer. Things were pretty much perfect, and now...things just suck. I wanna be close with those same people again, and Im just...not. i feel like now Im a friend to people because Im friends with people they're friends with, or because I support them and their band, not because they actually wanna hang out with me, or even like me at all. Like, they're just nice to me, and act like friends, because I do nice things for them. In all actuallity, they could think Im a huge bitch and totally annoying and I wouldnt even know it. I wish people weren't so fucking fake. If you dont like me, dont pretend you do. kthx </end> "we dont have to be in love, we can just be friends..." I wish some people would realize that...

(4 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) say so long, say goodnight... [17 Nov 2004|09:48pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | angels with even filthier soul - hawthorne heights ] I hate life so much right now. School sucks, and I have so much to do that I just want to curl up in a ball and die. Tonight I have history homework, I have to write a shitlong essay for english, and I have an anatomy test tomorrow on the skull. We need to know all 100 parts of the skull. Im thinking about just commiting now and saving myself the fucking effort of life. Once again, my boy thoughts are all confused. Im hanging out with Zach L next week sometime, and we've always had a "thing" like, every time we hang out we end up kissing. Then there's ben, who my mom and his dad, want us to get married. I dunno, and then theres...yea. I hate boys. asexualality...here I come. AND Im quitting smoking. I think. Im gonna try. I have one pack left. I dunno, I prolly wont quit because Im stupid and a pretty huge asshole. Some random person I dont even know called me a bitch today. Am I really a bitch? I dont really talk to anyone, and the people I do talk to Im fucking wicked nice to. I really dont get it. whatever. I seriously cant wait for this weekend, and then I cant wait till summer. Im so sick of everything that has to do with westbrook high school. Its so ridiculous. Im going to get myself some coffee and hunker down. And....Im gonna stop being everyone's bitch. I'm pretty sick of it. Yep the end.

(3 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) your....FIRE!! DUN DUN! [16 Nov 2004|10:30pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | speeding up the octaves - hawthorne heights ] So wow. Haven't really been updating, not that anyone reads this, or really cares at all. haha. so lets see...last time I updated was...friday. I think. So saturday was REALLY busy, zach helped me A LOT. like, if he wasnt there, I prolly would've cried. Ben came in, and I told him I was wicked pissed at him and he apologized...I still wanna hang out with him soon. Okay blah blah..weekend was okay. Last night, chamber choir, basketball game, funny shit. Today, awesome. work wasnt as awkward as i thought it was gonna be, it was actually really okay. I talked to Zach about college, and some fortune cookie thing he found, and a bunch of random shit. and he did well :) yay! After work, went to ambers, talked about who i wanna bang a lot. hahaha oh man. thats it. Im gonna do a survey.

(2 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) [15 Nov 2004|01:02am] Attn: Briana wanna go to lunch at alforno tomorrow? I want penne. ( Wake up now, it's over )

(Rock Your Body) Sit back, and watch her die slowly... [15 Nov 2004|12:10am] [ mood | mellow ] [ music | dissolve and decay - Hawthorne Heights ] This weekend was okay... let's see...friday night I worked till...9ish, then I went over kailey's house. Greg came into alforno and ate while i was folding napkins, so he sat with me, then he left. Col and I were on the porch and made NO money. It was atrocious. So I watched texas chainsaw massacre with kails, wanted to go over greg's, so I talked to him on the phone for a looong time, and he was freaking me out lol but it was hilarious. by far best convo ive ever had with the kid. So then he told me to call back, and when I did col picked up, so kails and I talked to him for a while. Long story short, I didnt go to gregs. Instead I stayed at kails for a while, got a million phone calls, made a million phone calls, zach called, then I finally left around 10:45. Headed up to Julie's house, hung out with her and slept over, got up around 11, and came home. After I got home I went out to lunch with Kails and Jack, good times. Brought them home, and went to work. OMG it was SOO busy. I worked with Zach and Col, and Im SO glad Zach was there, because he did a lot of stuff for me that I never would've been able to do haha. We all got off at the same time, so we hung out on the porch, and Zach decided to initiate some awkward convo that got me kinda...ehh. So I left, and BOOKED it to hamden to see pencilgrass. I made it there, and it was AMAZING. I love them a lot. Dyln begged to see my nipple rings, so I showed him, then eddie from pencilgrass grabbed my ass haha. so awesome. Me and eddie chatted for a while, then I said bye to kails and cam, and went to amber's dad's house while talking to allio, love of my life. Got there, talked to V and some of the boys. Eventually everyone left so me amb and v went to tacobell. Good times. Then we dropped amber off, and headed home,having a near-death experience, but we survived. So we slept here, then in the morning I brought V home, and picked up coffee for me and mom. went to baskin robins to meet her, and came home. Then I got ready for work...which was okay. Corrine told me I have really pretty eyes and that I did my makeup really well :) I was happy. After work I came home and did nothing. Then I went and got coffee, and stopped by Kim's. We watched the movie Saved, then I went to the gas station, and came home. So here I am. Tomorrow I think I have Chamber Choir at 4:15...maybe. Which leaves tomorrow night open for the basketball game :) Im pretty psyched. I think Im gonna go tanning after school tomorrow too. Oh, and I have to open a bank acount tomorrow...and I dont wanna go to block chorus. I love singing, but I hate a lot of the people in there. that's it. Im pretty tired.... xo - He's calling and I'm falling down I'm crying and he is lying about last night He can't find a way to tell me, and I can't find the air... I'll wait for you, I cross my heart...

(Rock Your Body) [12 Nov 2004|02:58pm] So let's see...these past couple days have been so uneventful. Sat around ambers, the usual. went to bed early. Today was pictures for the yearbook, me and mike got class flirt, andours was the ebst picture ever. I had one of my legs wrapped around him, and we looked damn good. wicked sexy. I have to work today. I wonder if col's working. i think he is. Im hanging out with mel tonight, no idea what we're doing. hopefully getting fucked up. soemthing i havent done in the longest time. work all this weekend...fun.

(3 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) Sleep = awesome [11 Nov 2004|12:18am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | I'm not okay - My Chemical Romance ] So I wanna go to sleep a lot, but I'll briefly write about my day. Last night I went to bed at....12:15!!!!! I was so psyched. Even though I had a lot of homework to do, I didn't care. I hadn't slept at all, so I figured it was more important. I woke up around 7:30, picked amber up, and went to school. Anatomy we did nothing, photography we did nothing, then I got a random detention from the french bitch, but talked to mr hale, so I dont have to go, because there was no reason why I got it. Then editted Bebe's paper through english, went to history, was in a GREAT mood, listened to some classical music, then my day was over! Came home, finished some journals, brought everything back to the school, picked amber up from school, and then went back to her house. We vegged out for the rest of the day, I fell asleep for a long time, then we went to the mall with Rt, Mc, Eh, and Jh. Good times hacky-sackling in random stores, getting stickers...amber got sticker that said $5 on it, she was cheap, I got one that said $50, I was overpriced, and ryan got 2 stickers. One that said $25, the other that said wide. He's a loser haha. So then we went back to her house and sat around watching I know what you did last summer, and around 10 I came home. Then I called dustin, we talked for a long time, Mark was over his house. After that I talked to Mark and Eric, then talked to Zach. I decided I wanted ice cream, and went to mobile to get some. YUM. MINT CHOCOLATE COOKIE is seriously the best ever. Now Im going to sleep, because I love sleep a lot. :) I have no plans for tomorrow as of now, so people, call me so i have something to do. Actually, I know I'll hang out with amber. ha we're such dorks. Yes, a+ for sleep time.

(Rock Your Body) Threeeee [10 Nov 2004|11:27pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | she will be loved - maroon 5 ] THREE NAMES YOU GO BY: 01. Alli 02. Alli2.oh! 03. Allio THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD: 01. Allio216 02. BbygrlQt6 03. pixiedustx1o3x THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: 01. my eyes 02. my smile 03. that I'm an awesome friend to people. THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF: 01. I get pissed really easily 02. my hips 03. that i procrastinate so much THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE: 01. Irish <3 02. German 03. Greek THREE THINGS YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND: 01. boys 02. math 03. how im still alive after this week from hell THREE THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU: 01. high school 02. two faced liars who act SO nice to my face 03. that I have to GO OUT and get ice cream because we dont have any good kinds here THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU: 01. clowns freak me out. 02. squirrels 03. walking alone in the dark at night in a sketchy place THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS: 01. music 02. cigarettes 03. coffee THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW: 01. white long sleeved shirt 02. turtle comfy pants 03. bracelets THREE THINGS ON YOUR DESK: 01. computer 02. mint chocolate cookie ice cream! 03. lotion THREE THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST: 01. I know right? 02. f'real 03. fabulous THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS AT THE MOMENT: 01. Hawthorne Heights 02. Something Corporate 03. Story of the Year THREE OF YOUR FAVORITES SONGS AT THE MOMENT: 01. Hawthorne heights - my life on stand by 02. Something Corporate - You're gone 03. Story of the Year - Until the day I die THREE PEOPLE YOU SPEND THE MOST TIME WITH: 01. Amber 02. Ryan Townsend 03. ....umm...Ari Kails and Neen when they're home THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOUR CLOSE FRIENDS: 01. inside jokes 02. hanging out everyday 03. they love me a lot :) THREE REASONS YOU'VE BROKEN UP WITH EXES: 01. One cheated on me 02. ^I started dating his HOT cousin, and it was awkward 03. He was too cocky THREE THINGS YOU WOULD WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP: 01. trust 02. friendship 03. communication/openness THREE THINGS ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU: 01. physical appearance :\ MY BAD 02. personality 03. musical inclination (I agree cassey) THREE THINGS YOU CAN'T DO: 01. Not speak my mind 02. stop procrastinating 03. flunk out of high school THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES: 01. listening to music 02. going to shows 03. hanging out with my bestest friends THREE THINGS YOU WANT REALLY BAD RIGHT NOW: 01. a boyfriend 02. To get into college 03. Prom to come! THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING: 01. journalist 02. photojournalist 03. something to do with english, maybe philosophy, history... THREE PLACES YOU WOULD GO ON VACATION: 01. austrailia 02. california 03. Italy THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE: 01. Skydive 02. travel the world 03. write for a wicked famous magazine or newspaper

(2 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) [08 Nov 2004|11:48pm] [ mood | cranky ] [ music | id kill to fall asleep - nfg ] Did I already write about today? I don't remember -i went to bed between 4 and 5 -school was beat +went tanning after school went to alforno for penne. saw col and zach. chamber choir- christmas soup. bidi bom. new gorgeous dresses. ice cream at friendlys with hannah. the.end.

(1 Justin Timberlake Wannabee | Rock Your Body) hustle for me [08 Nov 2004|04:45pm] [ mood | aggravated ] [ music | tilt ya head backkkk ] ( ho....HO! you's a ho )

(4 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) Say it like you mean it [08 Nov 2004|01:18am] [ mood | happy ] [ music | best of me - the starting line ] Okay, yano, forget that last post. I mean, I'm not gonna delete it, because, well, this is my journal. And I can do as I please, bitch! :P From now on I'm not letting people piss me off. If they wanna be fucking ridiculous, they can! I don't need friends like that at all, and I have enough amazing friends (Al, As, Js, Kb, Rc, Rt, Mb, Gm, El, Cc....Hp!) and if people want to lie, that's okay. I'm probably one of the best friends ever, and if someone can't appreciate that, then OH WELL! Oh, and I've decided I'll get into a college. Which one? Who knows, but I will. And it'll be amazing. Dont think it wont, because Im gonna rock college pretty seriously!!! Of course I'll still be so emo, because that's just me, but Im also an optimist. And it's really gonna stay that way. Attn: Hannah Im going through some ho withdrawal, we're hanging out sometime this week, going shopping, being hoes, shit we do best Attn: Heather We're also going shopping, call me....Wednesday? Yea, call me wednesday. I get out of school at 12:40, which rocks. So call me around 12:45, and if I dont pick up, I dont have service, JUST KEEP CALLING! <3 Ari and Neen - I miss you, come home this weekend. I love you guys. a lot. Kails - Call my phone so you can listen to my voicemail. It's a knee slapper, and a side spliter. call me when you can hang out, because I miss you!! Kuawa - I lover you. Good luck with Tom, I'm looking out for you, no worries. :) xlovex I feel good. I have good friends. really good friends. "We turn our music down, and we whisper, say what you're thinking right now..." -The Starting Line

(Rock Your Body) Wow. [07 Nov 2004|11:53pm] [ mood | paranoid ] [ music | I'd kill to fall asleep - nfg ] I really don't know what to do anymore. I definitely felt like things were getting better. I've started hanging out with Amber a lot, Greg and I are on good terms again, Amber and the boys hung out over dinner the other night so they met and whatnot, I'm starting to get closer with Ryan C, and I'm definitely a lot closer with Ryan T, my car insurence deal is under control, because I still have 20 days, and I made 1/2 the money in one day, so it really felt like everything was coming together. It rocked a lot. That's how I felt. Now, this is how I feel. I feel like Amber's hanging out with me because she has no one else to hang out with, that Ryan T is only talking to me because he wants amber a LOT and Im her closest friend, I feel like I need more money, but at least I know things with Rc are still really good. And then tonight, I find out some bogus shit. I don't know anymore. He's so twofaced. It makes me so angry that his friends can be like "no, he's not even friends with that girl, she like, stalks him, she calls him 9 times a day" to hear from his friends "yea, he usually keeps his phone off for that reason, and if a random number calls, he doesnt pick it up because he thinks it might be that person" and I think for him to do that, it's fucked up. But then for him to have to JUSTIFY talking to me with that SAME person is so ridiculous! Why lie to me? Or to her. I dont even know who he's lying to anymore, but it's obviously one of us. To LIE to his friends about her? Then to LIE to me about her? Then to LIE to her about me?! Wow. two.faced. Too bad i love my ho. THE FUCKING END. Well, not exactly the end.... I need to go to college. I started looking at colleges in Cali. I NEED to get away from here. I can't wait to go to college, and not know ANYONE. to be able to reestablish myself without people calling me a hypocrite. To meet new people, start over. It's going to be amazing, no matter where I go. The only thing Im worried about is missing people. Like, coming home on breaks and no one missing me, or remembering to call me, or really...just not having friends anymore. Especially if I go as far away as Cali. Okay, well I need to do some papers so I dont flunk right the fuck out of high school and never get into college anywhere. I cant wait for this year to be over with.

(Rock Your Body) Hmmm [07 Nov 2004|02:35pm] [ mood | hungry ] Let's see, I can't remember the last time I updated, but I'll start with... Friday So at school on Friday we had a health day. I had photography for a 1/2 hour, and that.is.it. Then I went to this tattoo thing, where he explained all about tattoos and piercings, and it happened to be the place I got my nipples pierced! It was wicked funny. So then I went to the tanning thing, got a free face tan (they brought in the little machine) and it was the same place I always go tanning, so they gave me a free coupon! So after that we had a break, and I left. I went to a music thing, and Mr. Dart asked me who These Green Eyes were, because I have a pin on my purse. I told him about them, gave him a sticker with the website on it, and the link to purevolume. He's REALLY into music and performs with a lot of famous people, at a lot of shows. So it was cool. He told me I look like a bass player, and I really resemble the bass player from sonic boom or something. I'm gonna look up pics, and hopefully that's a good thing. So after that, I LINE DANCED!!! Shannon and I rallied that. We left during lunch, and I sat with Amber and all the westbrook boys during the assembly, which was a group of break dancers. Amber and I agreed that two of them were very VERY hot. So after school I went tanning with Sam and Shannon, and then went over to Amber's house. We laid around and really didn't do too much. I talked to Mark and Eric the night before, and they wanted to go to dinner at Alforno with me. So then after school I talked to Zach, but he had to pick his mom up from the airport. So Col told me I didnt have to invite Greg if I didnt want, because of the whole, us getting in a fight thing, but I decided to be nice and invite him anyway. He agreed, and also offered to pick up Mark and Eric! I was pretty excited. So we met at Alforno around 6 and Col was doing the bar. Fun...we ate, paid, left, and Amber and I met up with Ryan Townsend, who wanted to go swimming. Long story short, I get locked out of my car for 3 hours, Amber and Ryan mack it, and Im standing with the police. Not cool. They FINALLY got my door open, and Amber and I went home around 12. I dropped her off and went home. Saturday I got up at 7 and got ready for SATs. Went to Ryan C's house to pick him up, ended up waking him up, and forgetting my ticket. So I have to run home and get it, he leaves, and I go to SATs...alone. When I got in there I sat down and looked to my left, and there's Ian's girlfriend. Party foul. I look to my right and there's a huge group of clinton people. Double party foul. Whatever. So the SATs weren't that bad/i> Came home, ate some sticky rice, and went over to Ambers. We watched Mean Girls 3 and 1/2 times, went to Taco Bell with the boys, and then she went to the movies at 10, and I came home. When I got home Zach asked me if I wanted to come to Greg's. Another long story short, I didn't end up going. I hung out with Heather and her boyfriend, and his friends at D squared in Saybrook, which was fun, because heather rocks. we're going shopping sometime later this week at Urban outfitters, because she's never been before. So then Amber called, and I ended up sleeping over her house, we talked to Ryan on the phone till pretty late, and then watched Half Baked. Today I have to work. Sad story. Yep. So Im gonna go find something to eat. I'm really hungry. Like, really.

(2 Justin Timberlake Wannabees | Rock Your Body) i <3 mullets [04 Nov 2004|07:39pm] [ mood | cheerful ] [ music | the starting line - decisions decisions ] ALLISON is a lovely kitty. meow. Allison, if she were a planet, she would be beauty planet....yeah... If she were a phrase she would say, uberty clip clop flubom lumbum growl growl...coffee cake You are the hunka chunka to my love tub. A L L I S O N you are my ribbon in the night, the scapul to my surgery, the cheese to my grilled, the cheese stix that are NOT on my table. the blue to my jamacian flag... I <3 you...every tuesday If she were a boat, she would be...a skipper...I dont know... Hey Allison, I think you're really hot...& sexy...I really enjoy flannel, mullets, and nascar. I can get pretty wild....if you know what I mean. give me a call sometime. Maybe we can 'get it on' in the back of my dodge ram. Love, Carla (203) Ima-dyke Allison makes my heart go a clip clop...with african tribal music bounding my heart down the wild hell powder hills of columbia...clippity cloppity.... Allison...light of my spleene, bringer of lemons... I <3 thee Awe-bringing Love muffin Let me love your scatfolding If I cant.... Sorrow will overcome me Oh, how you make me tickle Neverending....ly. Allison, I cant wait to get you naked and sweaty, and fuck you all night long on flannel sheets while our mullets flap in the breeze. Afterwards we can share a romantic bruskey and you can be my main squeeze. <3 carla Her eyes..green like swampgrass caress the moonlit nite skies with the utter perfection that is her being. Her hair, golden spools of yarn cascade from her crown of lightness and purity (;P) onto her magestic body as she stands, forlorn on the threshold of life. suculent speciman of life I <3 thee with all the fibers of my being. Amazing Lovely good Looking Intelligent Sexxxy Only wears flannel NECROPHELIAC Sexy Mama, your badunkadunk is so scrumptious. I yearn to squeeze your metallic breats. My mullet flaps for you, and I sweat under my flannel whilst I play softball. Be my woman bitch <3 Pat Allison rocked me all night long...the hard way *wink* <3 Carla I LOVE ALLIO Just like I love flannel me too. meow. --------------------- hahahakails jannine and ari wrote me those at work one day. theres more, i dont know where, but they're quite funny. so i posted them. say soemthing, i dare you.

(Rock Your Body) Interesting. [04 Nov 2004|12:00pm] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | cute when you scream - senses fail ] I think a lot of people were on crack last night haha. No just kidding, but I did get some interesting messages... Liquid90: GIRL! allio216: hey Liquid90: you are the coolest allio216: haha thanks, why is that Liquid90: allison Liquid90: fuck yeah Then I go to sleep, get a couple texts from him, and this morning REFUSED to get out of bed. Pretty amusing, but now Im not in school. I was realllllly tired. So mom yelled at me, but I dont care, because...well...I just dont. I'd be home in a 1/2 hr anyway seeing as how it is a c day, and I get out at 12:30. So I wake up this morning, get a drink, and come check my away messages and whathaveyou, and there's one from Mark bungipsc(2:51:39 AM): i love u awwwwww <333 Anyway, so that made my morning. Last night Eric and I talked about a TON of stuff. He's a good person to talk to, but I found out some things. Also, talking to Amber was hilarious, because she's never online, so when she is, we have VERY funny convos, such as... allio216: amburr, i want a boyfriend :'( goldfingrgurlie3: who do you want to be your boyfriend? goldfingrgurlie3: greg? ahahaha wtffff. <3 her though. So mom took my keys, and told me if I wasnt going to school, I wasnt going anywhere else for the day. NICE. So now Im stuck here. But thats okay, because I'll prolly just sleep all day, get up, finish my papers, and go back to sleep. yea. But Im getting pretty tired again, and Im kinda hungry. So food, then sleep. Yay.

(Rock Your Body) [03 Nov 2004|09:43pm] [ mood | happy ] [ music | nobody puts baby in the corner - fall out boy ] Today was A LOT of fun. Amber and i got to school late, but I had photography, and she had studyhall so we didnt care. Then I went to english where we sat and talked about literally nothing the whole time. Lynz was telling me how she thinks ms mal blows lines. I giggled. Then writing workshop, did some grammar lesson that I LOVEDDD. We editted sentances, and obviously, thats my fav thing to do. :) After that i went to alforno with Kim and got some penne with aruegala. SO FUCKING GOOD and talked to Colin, somewhat about what happened last nite. :\ History was all about the election, chorus was cool, and then I came home. Around 5 amber and I went to the Crystal Mall, stayed there till 730, and met rt and rc at saybrook bk. GOOD TIMES. we went back to her dads house, and we talked for so long. I <3 them a lot. We're getting close again, and that = rock. So today was fun. Dustin also talked to me a lot about what was going on. <333 But I need to do papers, and whathaveyou. So I guess....that is it. Mmmmhmmm

(1 Justin Timberlake Wannabee | Rock Your Body) and good times were had by all [03 Nov 2004|12:08am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | pocatalingo - pencilgrass ] Step 1: Open your Winamp or other MP3 player. Step 2: Put all of your music on random. Step 3: Write down the first 20 songs it plays, no matter how embarrassing. and put your favorite lyric from the song 1.Nobody's Home - Avril Lavigne "Her feelings she hides, her dreams she can't find She's losin her mind, she's fallen behind She can't find her place, she's loosin her faith She's fallen from grace, she's all over the place" 2.Summer Girls - LFO "SOmething in your eyes went and drove me crazy. Now I can't forget you and it makes me mad, you left one day and never came back." 3.Forget Everything - Nfg "Can we pretend for one second that we are together? What's the point of keeping my feelings at bay, it takes a lot of me, to get the nerve to tell you everything is okay.." 4.Bye Bye Bye - Nsync "I loved you endlessly and you werent there for me, so now it's time to leave and make it alone. I know that I cant take no more" 5. I'm not Okay - My Chemical Romance "I never want to let you down, or have you go, it's better off this way" 6.Over and Over - Nelly "Cause it's all in my head, I think about it over and over again And I can't keep picturing you with him, and it hurts so bad" 7.Punk Rock Princess - Something Corporate "Maybe when Im done with endings this can begin" 8.Hands Down - Dashboard Confessional "and you stood at your door with your hands on my waist and you kissed me like you meant it, and I knew that you meant it" 9.Life on Standby - hawthorne heights "I need you now, more like yesterday, the last day I could ever see you smile. FOr the last time, turn out the lights, my life on standby. So stand by and watch this fall away and fall apart, just say that it's over, it's over and she's gone" 10.Good News - Something Corporate "She waits all day she stands a stranger in her skin" 11.Cute when you scream - senses fail "Fuck with my heart, I'll teach you what it's like to be so used.. all I know is revenge is sweet when ya know that you arent worth it..." 12.Drawing Board - Mest "So love me, so I can be myself again now hate me, so things seem normal in my head Im trying to break away this ball and chain" 13.Blue burns Orange - Hawthorne Heights "tonight we fly...flying faster than the night, till the edge of morning light, dear black goodbye. I know it's hard to make this work, when you're all alone. And Ive been waiting for so long to hold you in my arms embrace forever my sweet girl. Water fills these open eyes..." 14.Hurricane - Something Corporate "Shake down you make me break, for goodness sake I think Im on the edge of something good with you Shout out don't drown the sound, I'll drown you out, you'll never scream so loud, as I wanna scream with you. Standin there with your smile blindin your eyes from seeing my face as Im dying.." 15.Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner - Fall Out Boy "So drink down gin and karosine, come spit on bridges with me" "And if you say this makes you happy then Im not the only one Keep quiet nothing comes as easy as you can I lay in your bed all day I'll be your best keep secret and your biggest mistake So wear me like a locket around your throat I'll weigh you down I'll watch you choke You look so good in blue.." 16.Cadillac - Mest "Now it's time to roll, this sober state is getting old" :P 17.Mmm Bop - Hanson "You have so many relationships in this life, only one or two will last You go through all the pain and strife, you turn your back and theyre gone so fast" 18.The Transition - Hawthorne heights so here we are back to th start again trying hard to wait to morning hey rise and shine and open up your eyes to give this world some color shine on diamond eyes, seperate the space between love and lies And as days go by, the memories, I'll wait for you, I won't let go Please leave me the same, pictures fade away Spare me just three last words 'i love you' was all she heard I'll wait for you, but I cant wait forever" 19.On the way down - ryan cabrera "Sick and tired of this world, theres no one there, trippin over myself, goin nowhere waiting sufforcating, no direction, I took a dive On the way down, I saw you and you saved me from myself and I wont forget the way you loved me On the way down I almost fell right through, but I held on to you Ive been wondering why its only me have you always been inside waiting to breath? its alright, sunlight on my face, I wake up with you Im alive" 20.U+ME = US - 2ge+her "I know my calculus, it says u + me = us" :P

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